yo, let's get introspective

i currently don't really know what i want out of life. i don't even know what i want out of this day.

i work overnights at walmart as a janitor. might as well be a dead end job. i'm thinking about doing https://onemonth.com/courses/one-month-html but what if i don't stick with it? or what if it doesn't lead to something better?

i wish i had a girlfriend but what then? what do you do once you're in a relationship? will i eventually alienate her?

can anyone actually look past the fact that i have cerebral palsy? do they silently pity me?

there's so many things i wish i knew how to do but i have no motivation to learn. i wish my life was better but i do nothing to make it so

i look to my future and see nothing.


but enough about me. anyone else got any doubts or fears they wish to share?